Last week I updated you all on my Places & Spaces project, looking back at a months worth of photographs left me unimpressed. They lacked personality, they lacked creativity, it wasn't the growth I expected when I first planned this project.
Then I thought to myself, "It's only been 30 days". I'd be ignorant to think I'd be the master of natural light and portrait photographer in 30 days, especially shooting through the winter. However I did want to revamp things, this project was suppose to put a stamp on who I am, or at least help me come close to finding who I was. I wanted February to be a bigger month, by now I should be use to shooting in the cold weather, and with snow actually falling it should give me an opportunity to be more creative. Moving forward I also wanted to us aspiring models only, I felt like if we were both benefiting from this then that would result in less cancellations and better pictures.
I booked my first shoot with a model by the name of Shannon, we had planned to do a winter-urban themed shoot on Dequindre Cut. The communication was amazing, Shannon not only brought her own ideas to the table but she questioned some of mine, not to be negative but just to be sure we were on the same page. I was super excited for that Sunday... But everything changed Saturday night, it started to snow like crazy, and it looked as if the shoot wasn't going to happen.
That morning I woke up and received a text from Shannon saying things were a no go, the weather was too bad and it just wasn't worth risking. Though I agreed I can't say that I wasn't upset. My sessions must be complete by Tuesday according to my project's rules, so once again I was going to have to scramble and find somebody to do this for me.
I went through my contacts and reached out to an old friend of mine, after a few back and forth messages she agreed to shoot Monday, I sent her some outfit ideas and things were back in order. We were going to shoot at the Henry Ford Estate in Dearborn, it's a beautiful location and has so many different areas to shoot, so I wanted to get out early to make sure I took full advantage of its space.
That next day I reached out to Diamond to make sure we were still on for 4PM and she told me that her hair wasn't done... And that she had an appointment for Tuesday at 1:30PM and we could do it after then. Again disappointed, but I understood, after all I didn't want to take pictures of her if her hair wasn't done, so I rescheduled for the following day.
Tuesday arrived, and things went from 3PM, to 5PM to no response... Shit really bummed me out. This is the first time I had no one to shoot, and I had ran out of emergency resources, I didn't know what to do. Slowly but surely depression started to set in, this was the only project I've started and actually continued it, so imagine how I've felt when it failed. My initial thoughts were just to quit, the project no longer seemed practical. My girlfriend was upset at my work ethic, and my work ethic was resulting in nothing. Not to mention the previous 4 shoots were rushed and never went to plan. I was in a state of confusion
I left the house to reflect for a minute. Places & Spaces is a great idea, but only if it's perfectly executed. How can I make people take the shoot seriously if they aren't paying. Are my pictures not even worth people's time, are they that bad or am I not taken seriously as a photographer? Questions I asked myself several times yesterday. I thought this project would have others reaching out to me constantly, I thought I'd be booked months in advanced, instead I can't even find anyone to say yes. What am I doing wrong?
I've realized that I don't have the answer to this question, I just know I need to figure it out... Fast. Though I've failed week 5 I still have plans to continue the project, I just need to figure out how to market my project better? If you have any advice feel free to let me know in the comments, or via email. I'm open to any suggestions. Thanks for listening to my rant haha, for those interested you can find the entire Places & Spaces series below. Until next week!