For the majority of my life I've been trying to make decisions based on right or wrong. I think it was something that is generally embedded in us during our upbringing. Our parents, or guardians preach about right and wrong, we also get the same lesson while attending school, and it just becomes apart of your decision making. What we forget as adults is that for the most part these lessons were instilled in us to assure we remain morale as people, it helps us make a conscience decision, and is taught to avoid untruthfulness, or pain from others or ourselves.
Instead we took this methodology and implemented it into our every decision. Every one we make is based on right or wrong, it's no longer about being morale or being conscience, but ultimately about not being wrong. We put our decisions before our happiness, and we think about what other people may think, which is the real influence behind what we decide to do.
It took me a while to realize this, and to be honest, I'm not sure why. When I decided I wanted to become a photographer I had several conversations with myself, and ultimately I knew what I wanted to do, I knew I wanted to do this full time and I was mentally ready to commit... Until I had a conversation with my family. They told me keep my job and to stop being crazy. They look at my life, see me comfortable, and by comfortable I mean 40K a year, and they see that as right. Me leaving my job would mean a toned down lifestyle, less privileges, less certainty.
And I think that's the problem, as people we tend to confuse wrong with sacrifice, or uncertainty. There is nothing wrong about not knowing what will happen in the next week or so, depending on your personality you may find that type of lifestyle exciting, or RIGHT.
Right now I'm a photographer in an unsure space, it's the Winter here in Michigan, and times are hard. This industry definitely has it's struggles and can cause some self doubt. When things aren't going right, I sometimes feel, well, wrong, but I just have to remind myself why I'm doing this, I have to remind myself that this is what I want to do, and me going for it, well, there isn't anything wrong with that. For those of you who are struggling, or are having your own self doubts, I hope this blog post helped you realize why you started your quest in the first place. Do what you have to do to support you or your family, but don't ever feel wrong about chasing something that makes you happy. Live life, and live it with no regrets.